(By the Streetlights)

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(By the Streetlights)

Writing letters in the dark.
A journal of my life in a shadow.
Sorry to have missed you Mr. Grief,
what was you beef against me in my time of need?
"Only greed"... He conceided.
And now I can no longer see.
For the darkness
is without light...

Became night.

The List

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I know that I pushed too far
and only you can see
what you did to me
for all my life to be
in as deep as can be
for without all this I see
that its you that pushed too far.

And now this life is cold
and it's you that put me where I'm at
by screaming at me like a cat
or making things worse like that
pulling a rabbit out of your hat
would make me disappear like that
or even make me feel so old.

Living a life of unloved dreams
as though my whole life it seems
has been forgotten like a fading mist
but my life is written within your list
of hopeless scribbles and senseless rhyme
that all the people will see in time
without all the glamor and gleam
and see my life of unloved dreams.

Hopeless and helpless I once wrote
and many read it as a joke
a collection of words well laid out
for others to read what I have spoke
a lifetime ago but without the joke.

Picking my pockets and found a past
that once was mine but didn't last
beyond the wandering of memories grasp
forgotten forever the words I hear
and without them brings only fear
for I lost the only things I hold dear.

My writings and ramblings are what I am
and for this I confess but what I can
I'll keep the memories I now have
of a past that I lost from within my grasp
and write what I can from memories missed
and continuing to add to this list
of hopeless scribbles and senseless rhyme
and let the people read one more time.

I missed a whole day! There was something in the water. I found myself hallucinating all day long. Looked like Polar bears, but I didn't really get close enough to tell for sure. Strange sounds from all around my new camp. Don't seem as safe as I thought it would be. And the proximity to the creek don't really mean much if the water is tainted!

I'm wondering if the water is somehow filtered (?!?) through some brush upstream? I have no idea. Found some coconuts, so at least I have some liquids as well as some food. Never really liked Coconut. But now, tastes wonderful!

Perhaps tomorrow I'll venture out, perhaps upstream. I NEED to find FRESH water!

Did I mention I don't like the color Purple!!!

Ok... Things have calmed down a bit. There were strange noises all night long, so I was awake all night long. I don't feel safe here.

Decided I have to venture further from my camp to find fresh water. Turns out there was a stream about 2 clicks to the south... At least I think that direction is south. My compass broke with the landing...

I AM NOT ALONE HERE!!! When I returned from the stream, I found my camp in disarray! Someone, or some THING, is out there... Tomorrow I look for a better camp. Something more secure. I think I saw some cliffs near the path to the creek. Perhaps that may be safer!

And whats with that damned PURPLE SKY!!!

Day 1... I've landed on the island...

Odd smell in the air.

Sky turned purple today. Might rain???

Gotta go.. Something is coming!